Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Day 2: Virginia - Old Memories, New Places


Since I took no photos in Central VA, here is a photo of the Cape May lighthouse in the background dedicated to my brother-in-law and his love of lighthouses.


It is Monday September 15th now and time to move into new territory.  As I head up I-81 N, I listen to WETS-FM, the NPR state which broadcasts from the campus of East Tennessee State University, hearing the BBC news and the Diane Rehm show.  I pass Abingdon, VA remembering going to Barter Theater and visiting several restaurants there.   I remember Allan's and mine first official date as I pass South Holston Dam where we walked around, and then went to eat broasted chicken. As I head further north, I notice how some of the exits are larger now and some seem less remote than they did during the first times I traveled through Southwest VA over 25 years ago.  Traveling on I-81 was the first time I came into contact with the isolated mountain culture of the Appalachia;  I had never seen such tiny shacks with satellite dishes such a paradox.  I think about the people that I met while getting my associate degree in Administrative Technology at National College of Business and Technology in Bristol,VA.  Some of my classmates were first generation high school graduates and many would be the first generation in their family to have had any kind of higher education.  I hope that the growth in Southwest VA has brought expanded opportunities  to these families  some of whom  have struggled and been isolated for many generations.

The old fades away and now I must pay close attention as I leave I-81 and head east towards Richmond.  This part of Central VA is filled with many beautiful farms.  Unfortunately since I was in new territory and nervous about traffic once I got to I-95; I did not stop at any of the scenic overlooks and take pictures.  As I passed through these farmlands, I recalled a book series that I read which takes place in VA and involved fox hunting.  Driving through the countryside gave me the patience and strength to face the traffic as headed onto I-95.  Arriving at my brother-in-law's and his wife's home in the late afternoon, I was ready to get out of the car and be with people.  Being my first time, I enjoyed seeing their home filled with treasures of their travels and other collections.  My sister-in-law loves the Denver Broncos while my brother-in-law enjoys collecting beer cans.  After an enjoyable supper and more conversation, I sleep well as tomorrow will be a full day of driving and visiting for me.  By the way if you have never tried blue cheese crumbles in your mashed potatoes I highly recommend them.

Some links to my brother-in-law and his wife's favorite things:

http://www.denverbroncos.com/
http://washington.nationals.mlb.com/index.jsp?c_id=was
http://www.lighthousechallengenj.org/
http://www.honolulumarathon.org/

If you love animals and mysteries, I recommend the Mrs. Murphy series by Rita Mae Brown:
http://www.ritamaebrownbooks.com/

http://www.etsu.edu/wets/ -  89.5 public radio from Johnson City, TN
http://thedianerehmshow.org/












Monday, October 6, 2014

Day 1: Across Tennessee - Intersection of the Old and New

As I began my journey on September 14, I felt frazzled.  I didn't leave as early as I planned nor did I get as much sleep as I had wanted to as it had been a very busy week.  Yet I as turned on NPR and headed east on I-40; I calmed down and settled into the familiar drive of the Interstate. I never fail to notice however the beauty of crossing the Tennessee River, the Cumberland Plateau and the mountains as I journey across Tennessee. In between enjoying NPR and the scenery; I reflect on the number of times I have made this trip or some portion thereof - I-40 East to I-81 North to Johnson City, TN; it is more than I can count.  I think about the fun times with Allan hiking at various State Parks and Natural Areas as well as our trips together passing through TN on our way to his family in PA.  Then my mind jumps back into the mixed memories of childhood and my first  trip to Tennessee in March, 1980. My family visited Nashville and stayed at the Opryland Hotel.  My thoughts drift to the bittersweet memories of family and friends that are different now because deaths, divorces, geographic re locations, illnesses, job changes and other circumstances have changed those relationships. As I came back to the present; the tears come as I remember Jane's and mine trip together to Emory and Henry College in Emory VA along with our trip to Norris, TN. It was such a wonderful time and now I am not sure what to think, I only feel sadness.  As I arrive in Johnson City, TN as is typical of me I try to get to  find my friend's house by memory during which time I get lost but this gives me another chance to drift down memory lane.  My time at East Tennessee State University; being involved at Munsey Memorial United Methodist Church(my first time around for being Methodist) and First Presbyterian Church(my second time around being PCUSA) and times at various places such as Buffalo Mountain, Barnes and Noble, Winged Deer Park, Cootie Brown's along with the Downtown Art Galleries on First Friday.  I arrive at the my friends home where she greets me with  a big hug and invites me to get settled.  Her home oozes love all over me as we share a delicious supper and plenty of stimulating conversation.  She has been a friend of my family's for over 10 years and I always gain much wisdom from her variety of life experiences.  They day comes to an end; my first night away from home, one piece of the journey complete.

About the Photo:  Allan and I met on a Bird and Wildflower hike at Roan Mountain State Park in October, 2002.  This photo is of one of our first outings together at Hampton Creek Cove State Natural Area. Disclaimer: Not best the picture of me but excellent of the mountains!! We both have degrees from East Tennessee State; He received his M.S. in Biology and I received my B.S. in Interdisciplinary Studies.

Check out:
Tennessee State Natural Areas at: http://www.state.tn.us/environment/natural-areas/natural-areas/
Tennessee State Parks at: http://tnstateparks.com/
Johnson City, TN at: http://visitjohnsoncitytn.com/#url=%3Fpage%3Dvisitors%26subPage%3Dmain
East Tennessee State University at: http://www.etsu.edu/etsuhome/

Pilgrimage: There and Back Again

To borrow the words of the infamous hobbit, Bilbo Baggins, that is how I can sum up my journey, There and Back Again.  However, unlike Bilbo I needed no convincing when the opportunity arose for me to be able to attend a retreat in Cape May NJ and then to spend an extended time in the Northeast visiting friends and family.  I traveled for 18 days and visited five states in addition to TN: Virginia, Maryland, Delaware, New Jersey and Pennsylvania. Also unlike Bilbo who traveled very lightly my car was full of all kinds of things from clothes and coats for everything kind of weather to food to yoga supplies, books  and a sundry of necessary items like soap, shampoo, toothpaste, medicine, and a hairbrush.

 A pilgrimage is defined by Dictionary.Com as, "a journey, especially a long one, made to some sacred place as an act of religious devotion"and/or"any long journey, especially one undertaken as a quest or for a votive
 purpose, as to pay homage".  Both definitions describe the long journey I made. The entire trip was of an act of religious devotion; an act of bridging the old and new; and a response to God's call on my life to spiritual directing, leading retreats and small groups along with teaching.  The second definition fits also because the second focus of the trip was to pay homage to friends and family who have prayed for me and loved me over the course of my almost 42 years.  Some I had an opportunity to visit with, others scheduling did not permit while some have been gone for many years. 
Another reason why I termed this trip a pilgrimage was my intentionally to be relational.  My pilgrimage was to be a journey with God as well as with other people.  It also intentionally allowed for rest and for me to practice my spiritual disciplines in a variety of ways. It was experimental nature as I traveled by myself driving in places where I had never driven before.  As I drove through the Baltimore Harbor Tunnel, the Walt Whitman Bridge and traveled on busy highways such as I-95 and the New Jersey Turnpike I gained a sense of empowerment.  Also with God's help I was able to be intentional about eating healthy taking with me fruit, hard-boiled eggs and some delicious raw juices from Pour Me Some Juice, a local business in Jackson TN.  Along the way I purchased bananas, hard-boiled eggs, cut-up strawberries, protein bars, grapes and salads from a variety of places including Wawa and 7-Eleven(yes, I miss them). Overall I experienced many days filled with bright sunshine and felt God's hand throughout my entire travels. As I created space for God; I found new freedom in the Holy Spirit and experienced deep healing.  I welcome you to comment as you read through my day to day accounts of my pilgrimage and share your experiences of transformation. 

About the photo above:  It is an oil pastel depicting the Four Gospel Journey of Transformation as created and developed by Dr. Alexander Shaia  and known as "Quadratos"- the mountains represent the Gospel of Matthew - How do we face change?, the waves represent the Gospel of Mark - How do we move through suffering, the flowers represent the Gospel of John - How we receive joy?  and the roads represent the Gospel of Luke - How do we mature in service? 
For more information, visit http://www.quadratos.com/

For further study and information, check out: 

Thursday, September 11, 2014

"Nebraska" - The Spiritual Thread I observed

I recently watched the movie, “Nebraska”, with my husband.  I observed God in this movie in one of the sons, David, who continually listened to and persevered with his father.  David does not allow his father to be ridiculed or made fun of in any way. Like God, David would drop everything for his father. At two different places in the movie, David receives a phone call regarding his father and drops everything to help his dad.  When David realizes his dad is missing, he drives around and when he sees he picks him up.  He continually pays attention to his dad even when his mother and other brother are tired of listening to him.  David asks his dad questions and listens to the answers. 

When David gets into the car with his father to drive to Nebraska; David moves beyond normal capacity and offers unconditional love.  I saw God in David gaining a deeper understanding of his father as they traveled.  David learned more of his dad’s story during their time on the road.   This is what God does for us in ways beyond our imagination.  I noticed an unconventional grace as David accompanied his father in some cases neither condoning nor condemning his actions.  I thought about how God offers each of us a unique grace.  God offers the grace that is appropriate for our story, our weaknesses and our desires.  She comes after us when we runaway always offering us love in all situations.
I saw God in how David allowed his father to drive down the main street in his hometown one more time.  It reminds me of the many ways God has redeemed my losses through one more chance or one more opportunity to speak to someone or to go somewhere.  God gives us many more chances than we deserve and is patient beyond our comprehension. 

While it was not always spoken in love the way God wants it, I saw God in the truths revealed. As I watched, various truths about David’s father behavior some good and some bad coming to light, it caused me to think about how God gives us only what we can handle and that she wants the truth revealed.  It was necessary for David to know the truth about his father’s actions both good and bad so he could better understand and therefore love his father more.  In a similar fashion as our love for God grows deeper, she reveals her truth in a greater, deeper fashion.
Another way I saw God throughout this movie, is in how David was always honest with his dad about what he could do.  David never promised anything that he could not deliver.  God keeps her promises and does not promise anything that she will not do.  David did not constantly remind his dad of his failures.  God forgives and then forgets like David she keeps coming back to pick us up at the side of the road. 

Lastly, I observed God in this movie through David’s changing perspective.  David initially wanted to take this trip so his dad would shut up about wanting to go but as the movie continued David demonstrated gratitude for the time he spent with his father.  God does the same thing for us when we are open; she offers us the chance to have a new perspective about even the worst situations in our lives.

This movie constantly reminded me of the transcending power of God’s love.  Her love knows no bounds and even the craziest situations can be used for the greater good.


A Book review of Nadia Bolz-Weber's Pastrix: The Cranky, Beautiful Faith of a Sinner and Saint

Are you looking for an autumn read that will be challenging and thought provoking but not too technical or complicated? Then perhaps Nadia Bolz-Weber’s book, Pastrix: The Cranky, Beautiful Faith of a Sinner & Saint is for you. Pastrix is Nadia’s story from childhood to rebellion, from addiction to new life in Christ and from disciple to pastor. She is a Lutheran Pastor in Colorado who tells it like it is. While I can almost guarantee Bolz-Weber will offend or provoke you; she will also touch your heart. Her story is one in which most people will find something to connect to whether it’s growing up in fundamentalism, dealing with addiction, being uncomfortable with people who aren't like you or learning to have discourse with those you disagree with.

"No one is climbing the spiritual improvement ladder" is a one quote from Pastrix that hit me right between the eyes. It made me think about a conversation that occurred recently when I expressed an opinion in a way that others saw as judgmental and self-righteous. However, when I thought about it, I realized that what I said was really about my own loneliness and frustration not even about the issue at hand. However, at the bottom of my own loneliness and frustration is my trying to do stuff in my own strength. I have become too focused on the "spiritual improvement ladder”; rather than focusing on being made anew in Jesus Christ.
Like I mentioned Nadia’s book is not for faint-hearted; I even wondered as I started Pastrix whether God could use this 44 year old tattooed 6 feet 1 inch tall unconventional Lutheran Pastor’s story to speak to me. I invite you to take plunge and join the conversation that made Pastrix a New York Times bestseller. Even those who disagree with her theology the strongest respect her. Here is what Rod Dreher of the American Conservative has to say about Nadia: “She is a foul-mouthed hot mess, for sure, but there’s something so authentic and broken and great about her.”

So read with an open-mind and enjoying this unique pastor from Denver, Colorado who is causing many to examine Christianity in a new way. Nadia Bolz-Weber is married with two children. Her husband is also a Lutheran pastor. Published in September 2013; Pastrix: The Cranky, Beautiful Faith of a Sinner & Saint is available in e-book, audio book and hardback editions.

Visit http://www.nadiabolzweber.com/ to learn more about Nadia and her ministry. 



Monday, August 25, 2014

"Sharing Jesus' Peace" - John 14:27, John 16:33 and John 20:19-21

“Sharing Jesus’ Peace” – Andrews Chapel Campus of Jackson FUMC – 8/24/2014
Peace – what comes to mind when you hear this word?- Is it a river, a mountain, or the desert; somewhere away from all of the noise and clutter of our modern world; is it time alone in your home without your family making demands on or is it a day without screaming, fighting, or shooting?
Peace as defined by Merriam-Webster has many meanings – including “freedom from oppressive thoughts or emotions, freedom from civil disturbance or harmony in personal relationships.” The opposite of peace is “war, anguish, anxiety or worry, according to the dictionary.
In 1938, Neville Chamberlain entered the UK into a non-aggression pact with Hitler stating that Germany would never go to war again with them. Chamberlain infamously described this accord as, “Peace in Our Time”. He firmly believed that there would be peace and another World War had been avoided. However, as we know in hindsight; it was not long before Hitler violated this agreement and bombs were being dropped on the UK. (For further info visit http://news.bbc.co.uk/onthisday/hi/dates/stories/september/30/newsid_3115000/3115476.stm)
As illustrated by this story; we as human beings more often than not experience external peace temporarily. We come to an agreement or settlement or we go off by ourselves for a while. However, in our own strength, it is nearly impossible to maintain our agreements and most of us cannot permanently leave our jobs and families. Yet even for those who are called to a contemplative life; the external trouble cannot be escaped. Thomas Merton was in the monastery throughout much of the Civil Rights Movement and the upheaval of the 1960s. However, no matter hard he tried; Merton could not ignore these events and God’s call to speak out through praying and writing about them.
Our scriptures this morning remind us that there is another kind of peace; a lasting peace that is freely given to us by Jesus Christ. A peace that exists not just in the quiet but also in the swirl of our modern world. For Jesus himself acknowledges that we will have trouble in the world. In our verses; from chapters 14 and 16; Jesus speaks peace to his disciples during their final hours together. Yet it is a different kind of peace than they expected; it is not freedom from Roman captivity
or violence. It is an inner peace; a peace that comes from knowing God and acknowledging his ongoing presence in all aspects of our life.
After his Resurrection, Jesus appears to his disciples and add offers them his peace and just as his father has sent him; sends them out to share this peace with the world.
However, before we can share Jesus with the world and offer peace; we must know Jesus ourselves. Once we dedicate our lives to Him, them we must continue to spend time in His presence. In Henri Nouwen’s book; Discernment: Reading the Signs of Life written with Michael J. Christensen and Rebecca J. Laird; he describes 4 ways of spending time with God; in my own words they are:  
1. Reading, reflecting and interpreting scripture
2. Abiding in prayer
3. Worship and sharing in the Lord’s Supper
4. Remembering Jesus and our ‘burning heart’ experience of experiencing God’s presence or as John Wesley described it; “my heart was strangely warmed”(found on pp. 118 Discernment: Reading the Signs of Life, Harper One, ©2013)
When we regularly spend time in these spiritual practices
We can offer hospitality to those who cannot return our invitation and are in need of a friend. Consider inviting those who due to unemployment, grief, violence, mental illness, physical disabilities and addiction are in need of Jesus’ peace and love. Consider offering food, shelter and clothing to those in need by volunteering for Habitat for Humanity, at your local soup kitchen or the Salvation Army. Volunteer at the school in your community. Participate in crime marches; attend local events and get to know your neighbors. Smile at strangers in the grocery store. Be counter-cultural by letting cars out in front of you; giving up your place in
line to someone who appears frustrated or pay for a strangers’ meal in a restaurant. These are all ways we can share Jesus’ Peace in our day-to-day lives.
However, I would contend that we sometimes jump into these works of justice too quickly and try to do them in our own strength. We neglect to pray for others and place them in God’s hands. It becomes difficult to offer peace and love to others without spending time in Intercessory Prayer. Jesus changes hearts and minds; we simply point the way with our words and actions. In his booklet, "Beginning to Pray" Anthony Bloom relays this story of a monk who worked beside many peasants in his monastery workshop. The story illustrates how interceding on the peasants’ behalf made a difference. One day, one of the other monks asked Father Stravinsky (not his real name I could not pronounce his Russian name), “how is it that the people who work in your workshops work so well even though you never supervise them, while we spend our time looking after them and they try continuously to cheat us in their work?” Father Stravinsky replied, “I don’t know; I can only tell you what I do about it. When I come to work in the morning, I never come without having prayed for these people, and I come with my heart filled with my heart and compassion for them. I give them their tasks and then I pray for each of them individually all day long saying, “O Lord, remember Nicholas” and go down the line praying for each one. Consider praying for those whom you see daily in your work and for strangers whom you see without the day. Jesus often uses prayer in unexpected ways and often like Father Stravinsky we do not see it until someone asks us about how are we able to be so patient and compassionate.(Retold in my own words from its retelling on pp. 115 Discernment: Reading the Signs of Life, Harper One, ©2013)
As we remember those in our families, our work and those strangers whom we pass, we need to remember to pray for the overwhelming situations in the world that bombard us in our 24-hour news society. I would invite you this week to consider praying for one situation in your community – learn the names of some of those involved and pray for them. Then choose a situation in a place that you are unfamiliar with, perhaps Ferguson, MO, Luhansk, Ukraine, or Beersheba, one of the communities in the Gaza Strip. Praying for those in other places; unites us with those who pray for peace in their communities around the world.
As I mentioned earlier one of the practices that needs to be a regular part of our life is worship. It is difficult for us to pray for unity in the world if we are not regularly gathering with our community of believers and praying for them
throughout the week. Pray for your congregation; its leaders and its ministries throughout the week.
Together through prayer and works of justice, we can permeate our life, our family, our church, our community, our country and our world with Jesus’ peace.
Will you join me in praying for peace?

The Rev. Elizabeth Tapia, director of Mission Theology for Global Ministries, wrote these  prayers for peace in observance of World Week for Peace in Palestine Israel 2013 World Week for Peace , which calls for justice and peace for all people. United Methodists are encouraged to use these prayers in both personal and corporate prayer times.
Gentle Spirit,
Breathe in us the wind
of truth, wisdom and righteousness.
May your Presence inspire us
 to create labyrinths of peace.
Compassionate One,
Make our hearts burn with love,
honoring all peoples  and creation.
Bless all nations, every family and community
 while we seek to work for justice and unity.
Prince of Peace,
 Lead us to ways of healing and reconciliation
  we pray with those who suffer and struggle. 
 Bless us with your reconciling love that knows no boundaries as we seek to live in community, justice and peace.
So be it.

 The Beatitudes and Prayers for the Christians in Palestine
A humble encouragement to the Christians living in Palestine...
“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” (Mathew 5:6)

God of Peace, as our sisters and brothers in Palestine hunger and thirst for righteousness, freedom, land, unity and safety, fill them with your transforming grace, that they keep on trusting You as they keep on being peacemakers.

“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.” (Mathew 5:9)

God of Love, help us to love and respect all your children on earth, to care for those who struggle and persecuted in many ways.

“Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven (v. 10).

God of Justice and Grace, grant us courageous and pure hearts, so we may see you more clearly and dwell in your land with harmony.

“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.” (v. 8)

We pray in the name of the Triune God, Amen.

 —Rev. Dr. Elizabeth S. Tapia (from the Philippines),
 Office of Mission Theology
General Board of Global Ministries of the
United Methodist Church, New York City
etapia@umcmission.org


Other websites to visit: 
http://www.henrinouwen.org/ - Henri Nouwen Society
http://merton.org/ITMS/ - International Thomas Merton Society 


Thursday, August 21, 2014

Sacred Rhythms of Life: Entering a New Season

In my seasons calendar  of Celtic and Christian  Spirituality; it is the season of perplexity and spiritual survival known as Lugasadh and Lammas.  This coming Sunday will be the 11th Sunday after Pentecost or ordinary time on the Liturgical Calendar of the Church.  For those of us in the Northern Hemisphere while it might be hot and humid; the days are getting shorter and Autumn is on its way.  The seasons of nature and of spirituality remind us that there are sacred rhythms to life - times when our work and creativity will flourish and times when we are to listen and rest.  

Over the past months I have been in a season of perplexity and spiritual survival; wondering where God is? and why is my daughter gone?  In many ways I feel robbed and cheated of a season I long anticipated; a time of celebrating her graduating from high school and a time of anticipation as we took her to college and a new life emerged for all of us.  

Instead what has emerged is a season of self-care, of discernment and extra time with Allan. Allan and I have seen two waterfalls on the Natchez Trace Parkway and completed a Crazy Digital of Downtown Memphis.  I am eating more whole foods, taking more Yoga classes and trying new classes such Tabata. My discernment time has included discussions with friends; spiritual reading, prayer along with more silence and solitude. As I wrestle with my spiritual practices; living with the Divine Mystery and beginning again; I find myself in a new and unknown place.  A time of preparation has emerged as an opportunity for me to take a pilgrimage has occurred coinciding with my finishing my spiritual direction training program and preparing for a new ministry.  

Less than the month from now; I will spend a little over two weeks making a journey to friends and family; to familiar and unfamiliar places and to new experiences with God.  Part of the time I will spend in Cape May, NJ at the Sacred Rhythms Writing Retreat: Bringing Yoga, Dance, and Monastic Wisdom to Your Writing Practice. 
I will also be spending two nights in a hermitage on the property of the Franciscan Spirituality Center in Aston, PA.  

This will be a season of discernment as I will finish my spiritual direction certificate program through Perkins School of Theology the end of October and then begin my Master's in Spirituality through Oblate School of Theology as an online program in January. 

 What season are you in?  Where are you being called to journey?  

Here are a few websites on pilgrimage and seasons: 

Ecclesiastes 3 New Century Version (NCV)

There Is a Time for Everything

 There is a time for everything,
    and everything on earth has its special season.
2 There is a time to be born
    and a time to die.
There is a time to plant
    and a time to pull up plants.
3 There is a time to kill
    and a time to heal.
There is a time to destroy
    and a time to build.
4 There is a time to cry
    and a time to laugh.
There is a time to be sad
    and a time to dance.
5 There is a time to throw away stones
    and a time to gather them.
There is a time to hug
    and a time not to hug.
6 There is a time to look for something
    and a time to stop looking for it.
There is a time to keep things
    and a time to throw things away.
7 There is a time to tear apart
    and a time to sew together.
There is a time to be silent
    and a time to speak.
8 There is a time to love
    and a time to hate.
There is a time for war
    and a time for peace.